Once in a while, or many whiles, our heads get into a funk. Mine gets into a funk. It’s sometimes hard to distinguish what’s a real funk and what’s a funk that I can push through. Are you close to the finish line and can muster up some strength to get you past it? Or are you lost somewhere on the trail and don’t know how much further away that line is?
It is a skill, a very important skill, to build some self-awareness and introspective skills to determine what the best course of action should or could be. There are days where I can see the finish line, but I’ve run out of the energy to run and push through. So I walk. It’s long, it’s slow, it’s not very comfortable, but I walk. I let myself feel all of those things until it changes at that finish line.
Some days, I just don’t know what to do. So I get scared. I get nervous. Then my head space gets really crowded. Everything starts to look murky and all of the doubts have started creeping in. They’ve busted through the doors and are having a party in my head. Those days are really hard to come out of. It takes a lot of energy and mental space to clean all of that mess up. What helps the most is when you have great resources in your life that can help you clean up and kick some of those doubts out of your head or make a plan to address them.
Sometimes I’ll think about what I can do differently the next time this happens. And sometimes, I just say that it’s part of the process of life and I keep on going to the next thing. The great thing about it is the ability to learn and grow from all the times my head space changes. Maybe the doubts will come back and maybe next time, I won’t need to panic when they do.